by theodotdoron

Currently watching house of cards, my whole world is slowly collapsing like a house of cards would. Politics, too much politics is not a good thing, yet, it seems, it can never be avoided. The question is always how to orchestrate several individual wills. As soon as you take a breath on planet earth, you have a will, one that will necessarily be other than that of others and at times much at odds with the will of others. Self interest is brilliantly depicted by the show, and it can just never be entirely avoided. The cynic is he who is not even given over to the ideal that solely peoples ideas motivate them into action.

It is easy to single out one person on the grounds of acting on selfish motives alone. Yet truly no one is exempt from that. I have often pondered the fact that Jesus said in the garden, shortly before His arrest that not His will but the Fathers will be done. Are we not to imagine that, since they are both part of the trinity, and the one thing marking common identity is a common will, that Jesus should have the Fathers will from the get-go? Why is He shown to be in a dilemma here, having to choose between two distinct entities?

Then it occurred to me. Jesus is fully human besides being God, and part of being human means to have been given that will to survive. I know that Jesus eventually gives into the Fathers will, yet it is not a merging of the wills. He does not say “I now will what You will.” He in fact decides against His own will. I glean from that that part of being human is wanting to survive. Politics shows these many manifold wills in their different varieties. Yet it is impossible on this planet to overcome that expression of a selfish will entirely.

Now touching upon a very fragile subject, suicide, for it seems as though in it the selfish expression of surviving has been disabled. No, it has not. Schopenhauer addresses this and decides it in favour of something he calls the universal will. I won’t do that. I have deliberated to take my own life several years back and I know there is really nothing simple about such considerations. Yet, at the very depth of it, it remains as much an expression of selfishness as the will to survive does which shows itself in for instance, a humans drive to eat.

It is shocking to me, yet also somewhat deliberating. No human being alive is entirely free from selfishness. Politics depicts that aspect of man. I believe we can, maybe at times, perform acts of true selflessness, but it would be dangerous to give ourselves over to the idea that there exist individuals or organization purely for altruistic reasons. The God I serve is said to have died for others, yet He had to trump His will with something else, Another’s will. He is the only human being in history to have ever lived a selfless life ending in a selfless death since He had His will overcome by the will of another and for the good of all.

I have at times imagined other people to fall into that category and I got deeply hurt. So the truth derived from Dr.House’s notion, that everybody is selfish, is hurtful, yet it is a short awakening instead of a continuous disappointment which would follow if one were to continue to live in a lie. I feel I have grown up over the summer. Nothing is as it seems, and I will spare you the details on the grounds that it may make me look paranoid. Where ever people get together there is a multitude of selfish wills that will be orchestrated.

And quite frankly, church is no different. The fact that at times good comes out of it is a true miracle, something really indicating the existence of a good God. Being too idealistic is not a good thing. Being realistic can operate with as much optimism, only it is standing on solid ground. Don’t build on a pile of sand, even if the sand is made of ideals. And even if the pile is the height of Mount Everest. Build your house on a rock instead, something unchangeable. It suffices to have one rock to build your house on. Go and make sure you have the right one. Nuff said.